Today, Lord, I prayed for your wisdom and your guidance. Psalm 19 tells me of your creation. The wonder and majesty that you have wrought for us. Like your creation you are everywhere. You are glorious. Like the sun, nothing can hide from you. I asked you for strength, you direct me to your teachings. I ask for your wisdom, and you tell me that your rules make the plain wise. Following your rules and your commandments will give joy and light the way forward. I can hide nothing from you. You know everything that I have done, the good and the bad. You know all my thoughts and feelings. Like David, I pray that you forgive me for my secret sins. Keep me from my sins of pride, I know they are many. Do not let me be ruled by my pride.
Are you guiding me here? Shall I shelve my pride and reach out to Christa? Do I offer help? How? Help me to put aside my dislike, my mistrust, my anger toward her. Help me reach out to her and you would have me do. Show me your way, Lord. Where else can I turn but to you? Who knows me so well but you? I cannot see my mistakes. I cannot see how I sin, but I know that I do. I separate myself from you. I offer you pieces, you want all of me. Humble me, take my pride. Help me to surrender my will to you.
I fear surrender. I fear to lose control. Even to the best, to the wisest guide, I want to be in charge, but I know that I steer all wrong. I do not know the way. I'm just going to get us into a mess. Take charge. Lead and I will do my best to follow.
Lord, you are my rock, the one who saves me.
Thank you Lord for all your blessings. For all your mercy. For your love.
Amen.
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